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Friday, August 15, 2008

good news or bad news?
start out with the good ones first..
don't mean to show off or what but..
i got full marks for my amaths!
woohoo!!
klah..it was pure luck..i sould have like gotten 23 i think but she wasn't so strict with the marking this time..i mean, i labelled the graph wrongly..mostly because i don't even know what i'm drawing..and i forgot to write the y-intercept for the modulus graph..
eng..well..14/25? i think can lah..my english has always been lousy..surprisingly, my SAIL test was good..
ok..bad news..
well..
i think i'm gonna fail for my poa..i just blackout when i saw the questions..even though it was easy..i didn't had a good sleep..i studied..but then when i see the paper, my whole mind was blank..i forgot everything i've learnt..dang it..
then received the bad news, at least for me..i won't mention it here..
sad?? of course i'm sad..i really want to try again because i really believe we can do it if we were to try again..last time was a good experience..and bad..at leat now, we know what to look forward to..i mean, i think at that point of time, we were just so blur with the different materials given that we just can't think properly.
and i really want to win something.
but now i can't.
i said i won't cry..yes, i won't cry..i was on the verge of crying,though..but i see no point in soing so cos nothing's gonna change..
i said i won't hate the new team..of course i won't hate them..there's no reason to do so..frankly, i think i will feel upset if i saw them training...at least for the first few weeks..
BUT.
i am happy for them, for making it.

and this goes out especially to ~too humble~, you probably won't see this...but i just want to say..
IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. STOP BLAMING YOURSELF FOR EVERYTHING..you already have enough on your mind..i know you have a lot of problems right now..and feeling a mixture of emotions..but IT REALLY ISN'T YOUR FAULT.

so sick..
i lost my voice..
flu and fever.
dang.