paranoid.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

i know i said i want to start writing more happy stuff here.

but these past few days have just been HORRIBLE.

yepp.

i want to last wed or fri to happen again.

it's just, i've been having these super paranoid thoughts.

and i've just been bringing myself down.

it feels horrible.

i can't think straight cos this thoughts just come across me every second.

i try to get rid of it.

i try to think that i'm just hating myself too much.

but nothing helps.

the worst part?

there's no one there who'll listens.

well, except hanis and asnira.

everyday i come to school, all i wanna do is sit at the corner and cry.

just suffering in silence.

yeah, there are the occasional laughs here and there.

but once it's over, the thoughts just come rushing in like a tsunami wave.

and seeing happy people makes it worse.

and NP has A LOT of happy people.

yeah, i'm being just a lil too selfish here.

i mean, i did try to use their happiness as a motivation to be happy.

i'm happy that they're happy.

it's just, i've come to that point where my happiness will only last a second or two.

i've lost my passion to do anything.

i've got no inspiration no more.

klah, writing this post is just depressing.

i bet reading it will be more.

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