it's one of those long posts.

kinda missed writing in this space everyday of my life, then trying to control not to blog.

now it seems like my life is too uneventful, it's not because i was lazy, it's because i don't have nothing to write on.

sad.

so update on my life so far:

we're in the middle of the 3rd week of Hari Raya.

this year's not so great.

i guess, my family kinda grew apart from each other.

what with my sis and bro not always in the house.

i thought we're supposed to kinda miss each other, and on this wonderful day kinda love each other's presence.

but i guess, my brother thought otherwise.

i was so damn excited over all the pics he's gonna take.

turned out he was not in the Hari Raya mood.

didn't bother to bring his camera, didn't even wanna be on a picture.

No family photo this year..

BUT, we did managed to take a whole family photo with my mom's side:)

first time we're all in the same room together.

my whole family tree's kinda messed up.

kinda makes me grateful for my family:)

which reminds me of the incident that happened last sunday.

MY UNCLE.

damn you to hell.

yes, i'm not over it. what do you expect? i cried about it 3 times. on the same day.

so here's what happened.

we had an open house on sunday for mom's side.

i was all stoked because we made potato balls with meat gravy, my favourite.

then they came. well, half of them- 2 families.

so, in the living room there was my uncle and his wife(this is the one whose house i'm living in) and there's my mom and lil bro, and the whole of Mak Busu's family and my nenek.

i don't know what we were talking about but suddenly, my uncle started scolding me for not locking the door that ONE time.

in my defense, the door was already like that when i came, and nenek was in the house.

and he started saying all these stuff abt my irresponsibility and shit.

i mean, he caught me offguard, he was embarassing me in front of the people i love.

i think no one knows how to respond to him, so they kinda laughed it off.

which kinda hurts.

at that point i was really trying my best to hold back my tears. so when i couldn't hold it back, i just left the living room and went straight up to my bed room and cried there for a good 5 mins i think.then ya, i couldn't hold my anger, i wanna tweet but my sis is following me so i dailyboothed instead. you can see in that pic, my nose was kinda red.

so i stayed up there for an hour or so cos i cannot face my uncle. i cried again somewhere between that.

my thoughts:

1) you come over to MY house. you're a guest. you have no right to scold me in my own house.

2) there was everyone there. ok maybe i wouldn't handle it better if he confronts me alone.

3) so what if i forgot to lock it? it's one time! EVERYBODY makes mistakes. you should know that better. you've made worse mistakes then i did, and i know that for sure.

4) no one, in a thousand years, would even think of intruding into your house. i am sure of that too.

5) it was so not obvious that i didn't lock the door so chill.

you could have just said it nicely, but you went too far when you kinda made the impression that i'm not welcome in your house anymore. yes, i admit it was my fault. yes, i admit it's your house you have the right to be angry. but no i won't admit that the way you said those words to me was ever appropriate.

and i know how you treat your wife. you're lucky to have a wife as good as her in the first place.

so don't you try scolding her and screaming at her every 5 seconds.

you need serious anger management skills. if i were her, i would have left you years ago. you don't let her talk, i have never heard you say any sweet words to her. thank god, you don't do physical abuse. but emotional abuse is just as bad.

sorry i'm blabbing. got to get these off my chest. my whole week have been so so bad cos i can't stop thinking about this. PMS-es, mood swings couldn't happen in a better week.