Saddest Arsenal Game EVER.

It's worse than when Arsenal drew a 4-4 against i forgot who.

I've been crying for I don't know how long.

And I can't sleep because I just feel so so so awful.

6 years without a trophy.

And finally we got a chance to be in the final of Carling Cup.

Against Birmingham.

They played a good game, yes they really did.

Ben Foster was good.

We attacked them so many times but he just managed to save it all.

The winning goal was just horrible.

It was supposed to be a save. But he didn't save it because Koschielny tried to kick it away but missed the ball. And they took advantage of that.

It was the 88th minute.

I shouted so damn loud.

And immediately tears start flowing out.

I HAVE NEVER CRIED BECAUSE OF A SOCCER GAME BEFORE.

But this was just a horrible way to lose.

And at the end when Wilshere was crying..

Oh it breaks my heart. He's 19. He's still a baby.

And Koschielny.

Yeah sure, it might have been is fault.

But I'm not gonna blame and curse him or what.

He was just trying to defend the ball.

He let slip, and fuck-up shit happens.

Usually I'll be super angry if he does this shit in a usual game.

But when the camera just pointed at him after the match, you could see he knew what he had done. You could see how sad he was, how a million things was going through his mind about the winning goal being his fault. That's a feeling he will have to have throughout his life, I bet.

Because he just cost Arsenal their first trophy in 6 years.

But you know, it was not entirely his fault.

Arsenal did a great job. They played splendidly.

Until RVP and Arshavin was substituted, I was happy with the team even though Cesc couldn't play.

That was the moment I knew things could go downhill.

Bendtner and Chamakh have never done anything exceptionally good for Arsenal.

But I still hold on hope that they might help in assisting or scoring.

BUT SERIOUSLY.

I have never felt so proud of Arsenal.

That's all I can say.

Now let me drown in my tears tonight.