Before the Camp.

Tomorrow is the camp.

ICT.

In Camp Training.

I think that's what it stands for.

I just know it's INTENSIVE.

Been trying to prepare myself mentally.

It's been a while since I last worked out, so my body's definitely not fit.

Physical training isn't really my most favourite thing to do.

Especially if you're among some fit people.

In a way, they will push me harder but in another way, my confidence level will drop.

And three straight days of intense workout, with the coaches being harsh, I think I will cry in this camp.

Reminds me of Advanced NCO camp somehow..you know that feeling.

I hate to be seen weak in front of others so I put up the best front I've got.

Seriously, I'm not looking forward to this camp at all.

Just get it over and done with and pray to God time will pass by very fast.

I just hope by the end of the camp, I'll at least achieve one of these:

- Physically more stronger

- Mentally more prepared

- Tougher as in 'stop being so gentle with everything'

- More stable

- Improve on my techniques

So that's my goals for the camp.

I'll try hard, but I can't promise I won't break down or anything.

Especially since I think my period will come this weekend so ya know, PMS.

So see ya in 3 more days.

PRAY FOR ME.