Life.

God knows how breathless I was.

I mean, ya it was productive.

And I realised again how tiring matches are.

You know sometimes I forgot that 2 minutes into the game can be so so tiring, what more 6 minutes.

So to have that practice during training, it really opened up my eyes.

But at the same time, I'm scared that I'll be so exhausted, that my stamina will get the best of me.

Kak Shirin told me not to lose my confidence just yet.

Yeap, I got beaten down bad.

See, I know where all my problems are but I just can't seem to figure out how to fix it.

I seem to lose balance a lot, can't resist.

And I'm in the lower range of my weight class, so that's a risk cos people seem to be able to carry me so easily. And I can't carry them for nuts.

And yesterday, I don't know if it's my stamina, or if it was because my vest was too tight.

But I could not breathe!

Worst feeling ever.

And I lost weight. A lot of weight.

Last Sunday I was nearing 53kg.

This week? 50kg.

I've not been eating right I guess.

Sigh.

Hopefully, tomorrow turns out well.

Last training before ze competition.

Oh the competition's brought forward to Sunday instead of Saturday..

I don't know if that's good news or bad news.

Meanwhile, Friday I'm gonna catch Hanis and Nadiah on their school production thingy.

Ali Baba Blah Blah Blah..

I think that's what it's called.

:)