A lot.

It comes and go.

But I constantly need distractions so that I won't think about it.

As much as this blog is very personal, and that I almost write out everything about my thoughts,

some of my thoughts are better not written here.

And that move will probably cost my sanity.

Sometimes, I get distracted from my distractions.

So it's like mindfucked.

The disturbing thought comes into my head.

So I tried to distract it.

But then, I'll get distracted from doing that.

It's bad.

Personal problems are already bad for me.

-My confidence level, the belief for myself

Family problems comes and go

-Unsupportive, lack of shown love

But now, those little things that are happening to me seem to take a big effect on my head and it's creating a huge impact in my life.

I keep replaying it over and over my head.

Till I believe in it so much.

That I'll just get sad and heartbroken over something that isn't real.

And I can't tell anyone about this.

Because I myself am embarrassed for having such feelings over such little incidents.

If I can't admit it out loud, then that'll just prove that I'm not ready to tell the world about it.