I need to stop it with these sad posts.

I go into mania in the afternoon, but once school's done and I'm all alone, all these feelings just rushed back into my head.

My tears have dried up. I can't cry anymore, so I don't know how else I'm gonna let everything out.

I myself don't know how to explain my feelings. It's all mixed up: sadness, jealousy, anger, stressed, stupidity, insecurity,left out,plain ugly.

Every morning I just want to be left alone.

Blast some music in my head, before school starts and all I can think about is tutorials and projects.

I don't really look forward to seeing my friends anymore, even though they're the ones who in the end is the reason there's a smile on my face.

I know it sounds quite harsh to say this about my own friends.

But that's how I felt last week. Hopefully, it'll all be gone before any problems arises.

It's like I have bipolar disorder or something.

I'll start laughing to myself all of a sudden, and do crazy stuff, and the next moment, I just want to cry and kill myself.

Ergh, my posts are so depressing.

Before I go, just wanna give a huge thanks to these people:

- My ACC friends: Marcia, Yana, Amelia - you guys put a huge smile on my face everyday with your antics, so thank you. Without you guys, my days would probably be hell.

- Ellis - I was touched that you actually saw through me and my emoness, but I really needed to be alone that time but thank you for noticing, it means a lot actually just knowing that someone knows:)

- NPSilat - Trainings are always tiring but you guys always made my nights. If I could, I would list down all your names now but there's so many of you. Love ya peeps<3

- Izzah - I don't know if you read my blog, but if you do, just wanna tell you, you give one of the best hugs ever. People who knows me well know that I'm not exactly a hugger but your hugs always make me feel happy:D So thank you, miss you.

Love my friends really<3

I may not be the popular kid, or have the most friends,

so anyone who knows something personal about me is very much considered my friend.

Gosh, this post looks as if I'm writing a suicide note or smth, lol.