Tired of sadness.

It's a funny story, about the night I had a GNO at Sakura.

But before that, let me just put up this post.

I really think that this month (not June, but the month starting after my period) has been really good to me. I've not cried or have a sad thought, besides that time before exams but that doesn't count. School has been good to me I guess since there wasn't much IB to complain about plus there was elearning week. I see Tumblr posts about being sad and I think," Hey that's so depressing. They shouldn't have posted or reblogged that. Life is good."

Then just now, was looking at random videos and out of nowhere, dark clouds entered soul.

You know that feeling? I don't know what I'm sad about, but that feeling of gloom is just around you and you can't help feel so down. You try to think of happy thoughts but it doesn't work so well. Then I realised..oh, this is my 4th week.

PMS season is back.

And I'm really tired of this.

I learned a very important lesson during Common Test week.

To never give up, even when you think you're gonna fail.

I've never really learned this lesson and I've always refuse to learn it. My mentality affects a very big part of my life. But this week, I really felt proud of myself. Seriously.

I thought I wasn't gonna make it for exams but I decided against it and tried my best and you know what, I'm gonna be happy about my results.

But then, after one challenge has ended the next challenge arrives. That's life huh?

It's like you're taking part in a competition and every few weeks/month, a new challenge will be given to you right after you've completed your previous one. And the toughest part is, it's never gonna end until you're dead.

So maybe that's why people commit suicide. Because they're tired of constantly trying to overcome their challenges in life, mostly which they failed. I guess that's like losing the competition again and again. Till the point where you have nothing to look forward to at the end of the day.