Breaking promises.

But I guess it's that time of the month again or something, cos I just feel so effing pissed and shitless every single day.

It's been one of the most depressing week ever.

There were good moments.

But it comes and go. In the end, I just felt like shit.

You know you're depressed when even once-in-a-lifetime compliments can't make you smile.

The silence, the lack of care, the criticism, the look and the words.

I'd probably over-analysed everything. But it still hurts.

And you know what, that memory from primary school still haunts me.

And it comes back everytime I feel awful about myself.

Damn bullies and their words.

You don't go around saying hurtful words to people, especially when they're still so little cos it freaking haunts them till they're old.

No matter how much I say I don't care, deep down they're still hurtful words.

And that triggered so many things in my life.

Probably the first time I mentioned about this ever.

But even my closest friends don't know what that incident was.

I bet none of my primary sch friends can even remember what I'm talking about. It's just one of those little things you slipped out but just can't seem to forget about.

Freaking bad week. I just wanna say I hate everything. I just want to be cooped up in my room and be alone. I don't want to be in school. School depressed me.

People, they don't have the right to judge me.

I can see how they look at me, as if I'm so useless and that they just want to kill me sometimes.

You don't know the half of me, you don't get to be the one who can think like that.

I've been through bullying, neglect, depression,betrayal,criticism,abuse.

I used to be a leader, but now I'm just a follower.

Because I'm just so scared.