Updates in Life: IVP, Internship, Crushes

Hey, I've been in hiatus for 6 months right?

Internship have taken over my life. Ot's a love-hate relationship with this one. Some days i love my work and thank God that I'm here in Citi, some days I just hate it so much for making me feel so stupid.

But mostly it's fine. My colleagues are nice people although sometimes I messed up and they give that *sigh* face.

Yeah, but thankfully my job doesn't require me to call or talk to clients that much. Emails all the way. It's like God knows me so well and wants only the best for me.

Speaking of the best, IVP is in 3 more weeks. Am I scared? Soalan cepumas tu. Of course I am! I can't stop thinking of the day itself. Every second of the day, I'm thinking of winning.

But I feel like I'm not doing anything much. Yes I come down to training as much as I can. But the amt of time I spend training is so little. All I can do is try my best to capture in whatever they teach and do the best I can in that short amount of time. I'm praying for a miracle to happen. I know imI still have a lot to go compared to other school's athletes who are national olayers or have clubs, but it can't hurt to believe in yourself right?

Anything can happen. They might just somehow hurt themselves or tak masuk weight(like last year) or hari tu their brain not functioning well and they lost.

And I think this year's gameplan might work for me. At least I don't feel pressurise to do a bantingan or anything like that. I know my own weaknesses. And I'm trying so hard to fix them. I get pissed at myself for repeating my mistakes over and over again.

See? Kalau berbual pasal silat eh, tak boleh stop.

There's no more crushes for me right now. Really. Mat Tuck have moved on. I can still see him on fb ah ehehe. But nope, he's weird. Why did I spend 2 years in my life crazy over him again?

I got a teeny weeny crush on someone but I can't with him. So I'm trying to stop myself although he's so irresistable. Nah, he's simply just a friend.

FRIENDZONED.

Oh and my fanfic story For Emma was taken down. That sucks. That was my best story yet, and they took it down without warning. Sigh. You can't have everything in life huh. But this thing I'm doing, even though fanfics are kinda dumb, it makes me happy. Writing makes me happy. Writing about 1D was actually just for me to gain readers since they have a big following but it turned out fun to write about them fictionally. Like, it's fiction but it feels real too.

I think that's all for now. I'll make sure I'll write about IVP. Hopefully it's good news, or at least not like last year. That was just so depressing.

Kbyethks.