Update on life: IVP

Friday, August 10, 2012

So many things have happened to me so far!

I feel so blessed and lucky to have gained so much, many praises to Allah! I wished I had blogged it out when the event really happened though.

Kinda regret not blogging much. I really miss blogging. People might call it lame but I think blogging's way better than twitter or facebook. Cos I get to talk about whatever I want. Twitter's too indirect and facebook's way to public.

Anyways, update on life:

- Let's start with my biggest achievement so far. That's right, IVP baby:)

Only God knows how much I feel about this. Happy to have received a bronze, duhh. It was my first time getting on a podium so that was super exciting. One of my childhood dreams came true that day. But I was such a noob and didn't really know what to do on it. Though the feeling wasn't as exciting as I thought it'll be because I had wanted my team to be down there too but the ceremony was divided into 2 parts. But anyways it was definitely an IVP to be remembered with NP being the host and all.

Mixed feelings though whether I want to compete again next year. This was purely luck and I know it'll be even tougher next year. And that anxiety attack I had on that Sunday was just too much to handle. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to go through it again.

Anyways, I'm truly grateful for what I've avhieved. Sure, I had my own goal way before the competition which I had never told anyone except my lil bro. My goal was a Silver. I even made a deal with with God to puasa for three days if He wouldd grant me my wish. But I guess He knows better. I needed to stay humble and complacent and maybe Silver might be too much for me. So I'm hoping this means good news if I were to compete next year.

And I just like to point out that I'm proud of myself because I didn't had time to train a lot because of internship. True that my physical sucks, as shown during my first match. But I trained hard on my techniques I think. Even though most of the time I suck during trainings. My visualisation sucks man.

And with internship being so far at Expo,it was a challenge but as I've said before I wouldn't have done it without NPSilat. Wouldn't sacrificed my time, money and energy on trainings if it weren't for the awesome team. My loyalty stays intact even during tough times okay.

True how I hate physical so sometimes I purposely take my time to avoid it ssshh. But now I know my weaknesses through the matches.

1) I am truly afraid to make the first move

2) I suck at resistance

3) Which brings me back to no. 1

I was disappointed at first during my semis though I know no one really expected much. There were words of eencouragemebt but I know that they don't really believe it. So I was out to prove them wrong. But I don't know..I wasn't mentally prepared that day, got scared with her, couldn't think straight and fell.

But I can say this. I won the first match for NP. And the got through to the semis first. So I'll have that to hold onto for now. It's nothing special, nothing much but it'll do for now:)

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