You know what I need?
A person.
Someone that I can talk to whenever I feel like talking without feeling like I'm disturbing.
Someone that would understand when I just stop talking halfway through a conversation just because I don't feel like it anymore. Cos I often feel like that.
Someone that won't look at me as if I'm such a pathetic stupid fool and understand an ignorant person like me.
Someone that regards me as someone special.
Someone that will pull me in when I push away.
Someone that I can call my own. It doesn't have to a boyfriend. It doesn't even have to be a boy.
But I guess it's hard now. I haven't made a new friend in such a long time because I just can't handle the awkwardness anymore and I get so pissed off with people now and I think I'm becoming dumber and dumber because I can't talk properly anymore. Maybe I've spent too much time on the computer, my brain cells dying.
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